2.5 hrs can change so much in life...

I have returned to this page after a very long time. But this delay should be attributed to those 2.5 hours of 19Nov when I failed to get my time management right and everything started looking in altogether different colors.

On 17thNov I solved CAT2003 paper and clocked 56. The score seemed good enough and added to my confidence and feel-good feeling. On 18Nov I solved a few sectional tests and felt pretty comfortable and was raring to go on the next day. But alas..

The coming days were spent in recuperating from the shock of utter mismanagement of time and analysing what went wrong. Anybodys analysis will always point towards the areas of improvement and more work to be done. So I reached the same conclusion and indentified few sections where i needed to wrok hard. But all the aspirants who attempted the CAT and performed well had not necessarily done that homework in all those section/areas. And this made me think about the word "luck", which I was evading from a very long time now. For everything to go fine the word "luck" also has to favour you and the has to be yours. But this new discovery and a new belief cannot rule out the work that needs to be put in. So I am again back to my desk trying to get things right.

What else I could have done.. but to write it here.

Its now 1.30am and I will start testing a Web app. After testing the same application for atleast thousand times I am tired of the User Interface and bored of the monotonous funtionality which is not changing much build after build.

While I am waiting for yet another build and having tried all the entertainment options during this long wait ranging from browsing all the links that I have stumbled upon during past 23 years of life, downloading lessons on Basic Electrical Technology ( which I hope I will go through in my spare time ) to brush up (though brush up is wrong usage here but I have to use it as now I own a B.E. degree in Electrical Engg) my basic electrical concepts and playing TT with my only teammate I thought of making this day one of the memorable days of my just started second job by writing this blog. I am definitely not tired mentally which can be guessed by the very complex construction of the previous sentence but I am very much worried about the coming day as I have to again come back at 11am ( which I am very sure not going to do ). The worry is again not for the work as it has never been really tiring but it is about the preparations ( not for Diwali but for the impending CAT ) that are going on the backfoot due to all this.

But I must confess that this is a great experience which appeals for a lot of endurance and is really testing out my mettle. After testing the new build of the Web App I still have the urge of solving atleast a sectional test after going back to home. If I can do this then it would be great and more so if I am able to get a good score... and I can tell you what I did only in my next blog :-)

Taking responsibility... way to self-confidence

Earlier I was working as a part of a team where I was just following the already sketched plan and predefined procedures. It was easy to work on somebody elses' guidelines/plans as you dont own the outcome ( when it is not good :)) and moreso as you dont realize the effort and thought process put into the structuring the whole process.

But now when I am doing something completely on my own... things like defining the scope of the work, delineating the process and structure followed and the format of smallest of the documents used, I get to realize the importance and precision required while doing the whole task. All this is not very complicated and just requires a step by step approch. But the whole procees should be easy enough to be followed by a new joinee to the team. For this, taking into account several things before finalizing a path is important so that rework can be avoided and the whole task can be optimised with respect to time taken to complete the task.

While doing all this the importance of owning the task dawned to me. As I will be responsible for any glitch any rework any amount of wasted time ,etc.. It also is taking me to a structured way of doing everything which is reflected in my day to day activities. And being able to do all this with some amount of success helps to increase the repository of self-confidence. In a nutshell its going great... just try it out... own some task at your workplace...

Experiencing Vacuum...

In my school days I learnt what vacuum is... An enclosed area characterised by zero atm pressure is called as vacuum. It requires a good amount of effort and sound technology to suck out air from an enclosed area and create a condition that can be termed as vacuum. But I have experienced vacuum inspite of having access to any of the above.. yep!!! I dint employ a good amount of effort too :-) .
Following is the procedure to achieve this phenomenal task. But I recommend the experimenters to take extreme precautions before trying out the experiment!!! As the state that you are going to achieve might prove out to be very dangerous and requires lot of patience and sustained efforts ( afterwards :-) ) if one wants to get out of the state. Without having the confidence of springing back to normal life and resilience one should not attempt this.
So .. Vacuum..
" A state in professional life when the candidate ( one who gets to experience Vacuum ) is not alloted to any project and has no responsibilities to be disposed from the previous project/projects or when the candidate has switched her/his (I prefer to use HER first as it is commonly experienced bye gals) job and again is not alloted to any project or when the candidate is experiencing bench period is very near to or can be termed as a Vacuum "
The explanation of the above definition goes like this... the periods that I am refering to in the above definition are the basic requirements to achive this state. This is the kind of period when the candidate has maximum amount of time and ( most of the times ) no clue of things to be done in this period. A cluelessness of the impending project robs off all the sense and the candidate spends most of the time surfing and chatting till he accidently stumbles upon few areas/topics in which his interests gradually arises. That is the point when he indulges in some more research of those topics and decides to pursue them just to find some more enticing fields to study and ends up having very superficial knowledge about all of them. And before he can foray deeper into those interesting fields(devoting lesser time to surfing and chatting) he gets alloted to a busy project and hardly finds time to pursue his dreams. These concluding moments of the period that I have mentioned in the definition creats the required air pressure i.e. close to zero :-) and this is when the candidate experiences vacuum.

Thus the candidate gets very close to the process of learning(i.e. learning stuff apart form the regular work he dose) and adding great deal of value but looses the opportunity. This kind of condition leaves the candidate with a hollow feeling ... close to vacuum.

Now this can be achieved by the ways mentioned in the definition. I feel experiencing vacuum is must once in life time:-). The experience teaches the importance of time and value appreciation of self.

I guess my period is close to over....!!!! :-(

Whatever is written above is just bullshit/crap as I am still experiencing the Vacuum/Hollow feeling and a nonsense post like above is one of its symptoms..

CHANGE...

Sitting on the railing near a lake I was enjoying the panoramic view of the calm and shining lake in the background of loafty mountains. Every weekend I get to enjoy this view after a weeklong tight schedule. The whole routine feels very comfortable and gives a good peace type feeling. I have been doing this from past one and a half year and all my friends in this place formed a great company. I am enjoying this inertia in life... a peaceful inertia.
That day while sitting on the railing I was observing few labores pushing a stuck cart/trollly on the sloppy road besides the railing. When they had just started down the sloppy road it seemed an easy task to them.. even for me. They were enjoying the peaceful inertia of the effortless work (the way I am enjoying my daily routine). But the inertia lasted only till the slope was manageable. They soon found themselves dragged by the cart/trolly (instead of pushing it :-)) because of the unanticipated steep incline. The CHANGE of slope made their life miserable. Had they anticipated this before starting they could have made the peaceful inertia(comfort) last longer. I realized that I am also in the similar situation enjoying my inertia.
CHANGE is immiment and one has to face it sooner or later. But a anticipated/preplanned change gives an opportunity to get along with it. It gives some time for conditioning of mind to face it and make it favourable. As against this an unanticipated change can be really disheartning and ruining (as it turned out in the case of those laborers) and an inability to deal with this unanticipated change can leave one with a hollow feeling.

Sensationalization....


Have people stopped thinking logically or have they lost all the common sense or its just the craze of creating sensational news similar to the media which adopts spicy ways of reporting.Earlier it was a Header and now its a Walk out off the field.In both the cases things could have been dealt in a better ways. Even while dealing with the matter in more logical ways great news would have been created and at the same time ensuring desirable resutls for the game.This kind of attitude reflects a desire to creat a larger than life image by overriding the rules of the game. Giving in to the irrational thought of the moment is definitely not what any game teaches.

Pluto creates waves..
Yes it has. And the reason being its size. As far as my reding goes it lacks the self-gravity that the planets are supposed to have to form a soliditary unit because of its small size.
A very small size, most disadvantageous fact for poor Pluto, actually has helped it to creat waves :-) and revolutionize all the geography books existing on some other planet. Wow.. seems a great accomplishment for Pluto!!!
Can a lesson not be learnt from a simple thing like this provided by such inanimate objects..?